When it Comes to Life....

There is something that my father always tells me... That I always seem to forget until he says it again

"Just remember, dear, like everything else... this too shall pass."

I have finally gotten to an age where I do not begrudge my father for being right. I am more towards the age where I know I will be lost without him being there to tell me when I am wrong...


If one thing is for certain, it is that nothing ever is.... that is what my father is always trying to impress upon me. That you cannot cling to much of anything... only savor it for what it is in that moment.... because odds are that it will change in the blink of an eye.... everything shall pass.


Fittingly enough, when it comes to his daughters.... we both crave certainty.... Nothing makes my sister or I more anxiety ridden when there is uncertainty in our lives.



You can tell me that: my identity has been stolen, I have stage 4 cancer, my boyfriend has left me, and my cat has been run over....... I can handle that..... I can not handle being told "we don't know".


There is something in me that tells me that this is my great lesson in life... A lesson that my father has impressed upon me as being of the utmost importance in my life... To just let things be


I am trying.... The last couple of days.... I am trying


Just to get my strength back.... to fight through the fog and the uncertainty and to focus on that which is certain

• laundry will always exist
• my daughter will always challenge my resolve
• cooking (onions will always turn translucent if you put them over medium heat with salt)
• that my boyfriend is there when I go to sleep and when I wake up
• that I have a few friends who still answer their phones when they find time
• few things bring me greater joy than learning something about the human condition

I am trying....

I didn't skip breakfast or lunch today.... that's a decent start...

*sigh*


I really do hate feeling like I am back to the beginning again....

Remember, dear..... this too shall pass